Thursday, August 16, 2007

Seven Nights - Jorge Luis Borges


I recently finished reading the brilliant essays by the great master. Included here are some of my favorable quotes from the book; though I would add that the whole book is a treasure in itself.

Seven Nights – Jorge Luis Borges

In understanding Borges, one should remember that for him, there is no sensible difference between literary and real experience, so when he talks about books and writers, it is like talking of landscapes and journeys.

The Divine Comedy

Chance – except that there is no chance; what we call chance is our ignorance of the complex machinery of causality.

Poetry is, among so many other things, an intonation, an accentuation that is often untranslatable.

Enchantment, as Stevenson said, is one of the special qualities a writer must have. Without enchantment, the rest is useless.

Truly fine poetry must be read aloud. A good poem does not allow itself to be read in a low voice or silently. If we can read it silently, it is not a valid poem: a poem demands pronunciation. Poetry always remembers that it was an oral art before it was a written art. It remembers that it was first song.

There are two lines which confirm this. One is in Homer –or the Greeks whom we call Homer – where he says, in the Odyssey, “The gods weave misfortunes for men, so that the generations to come will have something to sing about.” The other, much later, is from Mallarme, who repeats, less beautifully, what Homer said: “tout aboutit en un livre,” everything ends up in a book. The Greeks speak of generations that will sing; Mallarme speaks of an object, of a thing among things, a book. But the idea is the same, the idea that we are made for art, we are made for memory, we are made for poetry, or perhaps we are made for oblivion. But something remains, and that something is history or poetry, which are not essentially different.

It was forgotten that poetry began by being narrative, that the roots of poetry are the epic, that the epic is the first poetic genre. In the epic there is time: a before, during, and after. All of that is in poetry.

Halfway through the afternoon that day,

As I bid you my habitual goodbye,

A vague dismay at leaving

Made me know that I loved you.

There is something that Dante does not say, but which one feels at a distance from the episode and perhaps gives it its virtue. Dante relates the fate of the two livers with an infinite pity, and we sense that he envies their fate. Paolo and Francesca are in Hell and he will be saved, but they have loved and he never won the love of the women he loved, Beatrice. There is a certain injustice to this, and Dante must feel it as something terrible, now that he is separated from her. In contrast, these two sinners are together. They cannot speak to each other, they turn in the black whirlwind without hope, yet they are together. When she speaks, she says “we”, speaking for the two of them, another form of being together. They are together for eternity; they share Hell - and that, for Dante, must have been a kind of paradise.

Everyone is defined in a single instant of their lives, a moment in which a man encounters his self for always.

God, as Nietzsche would say, is beyond good and evil.

In some tercet of the Commedia he (Dante) says that no one is permitted to know the judgments of Providence. We cannot anticipate them; no one can know who will be saved and who condemned.

Nightmares

DREAMS ARE THE GENUS; nightmares the species.

The study of dreams is particularly difficult, for we cannot examine dreams directly, we can only speak of the memory of dreams. And it is possible that the memory of dreams does not correspond exactly to the dreams themselves.

For the savage and for the child, dreams are episodes of the waking life; for poets and mystics, it is not impossible for all of the waking life to be a dream.

He (Sir Thomas Browne) says that dreams give us an idea of the excellence of the soul, seeing the soul free of the body and engaged in play and dreaming. He thinks that the soul enjoys its freedom. And Addison says effectively that the soul, when it is free from the shackles of the body, imagines, and is able to imagine with a freedom it does not have in waking.

Dreams are an aesthetic work , perhaps the most ancient aesthetic expression. They take a strangely dramatic form. We are, as Addison said, the theater, the spectators, the actors, the story.

The Thousand and One Nights

”What is time? If you don’t ask me, I know; but if you ask me, I don’t know.” – St. Augustine on time.

“Of the operations of the spirit, the least frequent is reason.” – Fenelon.

Perhaps its not worth it to define something we feel instinctively.

Buddhism

As the vast ocean has only one flavor, the flavor of salt, so the flavor of the Law is the flavor of salvation.

In every moment of our lives we are weaving and interweaving. What we weave is not only our will, or acts, our half-dreams, our sleep, our half-waking; we are forever weaving our karma. And when we die, another being will be born who is the heir of that karma.

To live is to be born, grow old, grow sick, die – not to mention the other sorrows, including the one that was, for the Buddha, the most pathetic: not to be with those we love.

We must renounce passion. Suicide does not help, because it is a passionate act. The man who commits suicide remains in the world of dreams. We must reach the understanding that the world is an apparition, a dream; that life is a dream. But we must feel this deeply, having reached it through the exercises of meditation.

What does it mean to reach Nirvana? Simply that our acts no longer cast shadows. While we are in this world we are subject to karma. Everyone of our acts is interwoven into this mental structure called karma. When we have reached Nirvana our acts no longer have shadows; we are free. St. Augustine said that when we are saved we will have no reason to think about good or evil. We will continue to do good, without thinking of it.

Poetry

The Irish pantheist Scotus Erigena, said that the holy scripture contains an infinite number of meanings, and he compared it to the iridescent feathers of a peacock’s tail. Centuries later, a Spanish Kabbalist said that God wrote the scriptures for each one of the men of Israel, that there are as many as Bibles as there are readers of the Bible. This is believable if we consider that the author of the Bible and the author of the destiny of each one of its readers is the same. One may think of these two sentences merely as demonstrations of the Celtic imagination and of the Oriental imagination. But I would venture to say that they are both absolutely correct, not only in regard to the Scriptures but to any book worth rereading.

We say that Spanish is a sonorous language, that English is a language of varied sounds, that Latin has a certain dignity to which all the later languages aspired: we apply aesthetic categories to languages. Erroneously we suppose that language corresponds to that mysterious thing we call reality. The truth is that language is something else.

Bradley said that one of the effects of poetry is that it gives us the impression not of discovering something new but of remembering something that we have forgotten.

If you like the book, fine; if you don’t, don’t read it. The idea of compulsory reading is absurd; it’s only worthwhile to speak of compulsory happiness. I believe that poetry is something one feels. If you don’t feel poetry, if you have no sense of beauty, if a story doesn’t make you want to know what happened next, then the author has not written for you. Put it aside. Literature is rich enough to offer you some other author worthy of your attention whom you will read tomorrow.

This is how I have taught, relying on the aesthetic event, which does not need to be defined. The aesthetic event is something as evident, as immediate, as indefinable as love, the taste of fruit, of water. We feel poetry as we feel the closeness of a woman, or as we feel a mountain or a bay. If we feel it immediately, why dilute it with other words, which no doubt will be weaker than our feelings?

What is the death of a man? With him dies a face that will never occur again, as Pliny observed. Each man has his own unique face, and with him die thousand of events, thousand of memories, all of them too human.

Beauty waits in ambush for us. If we are sensitive, we will feel it in the poetry of all languages.

For me, beauty is a physical sensation, something we feel with our whole body. It is not the result of judgment. We do not arrive at it by way of rules. We either feel beauty or we don’t.

The rose has no why, it flowers because it flowers.

The Kabbalah

Today we think of a book as an instrument for justifying, defending, disputing, explicating, or chronicling a doctrine, but in Antiquity a book was seen only as a substitute for the spoken word. (As per Plato) Books are like statues, they may seem alive, but when you ask them something they do not reply.

Blindness

At that time, I believed that shyness was very important, but now I know that shyness is one of the evils one must try to overcome, that in reality to be shy doesn’t matter – it is like so many other things to which one gives an exaggerated importance.

No one should read self-pity or reproach

Into this statement of the majesty

Of god; who with such splendid irony

Granted me books and blindness at one touch.

When something ends, we must begin something new.

We have a very precise image – an image at times shameless – of what we have lost, but we are ignorant of what may follow or replace it.

I too have always known that my destiny was, above all, a literary destiny – that bad things and some good things would happen to me, but that, in the long run, all of it would be converted into words. Particularly the bad things, since happiness does not need to be transformed: happiness is its own end.

I want to live with myself,

I want to enjoy the good that I owe to heaven,

Alone, without witnesses,

Free of love, of jealousy,

of hate, of hope, of fear.

A writer, or any man, must believe that whatever happens to him is an instrument; everything has been given for an end.

Everything near becomes distant. Goethe could be referring not only to twilight but to life. All things go off, leaving us. Old age is probably the supreme solitude – except that the supreme solitude is death. And “everything near becomes distant” also refers to the slow process of blindness, of which I hoped to show, speaking tonight, that it is not a complete misfortune. It is one more instrument among the many – all of them so strange – that fate or chance provide.


Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Friday, August 10, 2007

Assi Ka Tadka - My New Blog

Well one more blog started.

This one is about the golden days of 1980s in which we grew up. So enjoy the same, feel nostalgic and if it brings a smile to your face, do leave a comment :)

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Cosmic Musings

Conceiving the birth of a planet
through the cloud of rainbows
in all the glory of the sun
thats orbiting around for fun;
I wake up from my dreams
impressioned by a stellar flame
on the other side of the galaxy
where a different universe begins.

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Friday, July 13, 2007

Testing Times




Monday, July 09, 2007

The Trip To Dhanolti


You moved ahead, I moved afar
separated by distance and time
Now as I open your new year greeting
the trip to Dhanolti lingers on my mind,

Remember the walk of the January 1st
a trek to the Sarkhunda Devi
when snow has not yet fallen down
to cover the roads of Dhanolti,

The breakfast at the shop at the base
how delicious those paranthas taste
up in the distance, stood the Nanda Devi
the goddess at her majestic best,

We climbed to the temple over the hill top
stopping to look at the mountains so green
reached there by the noon and the goddess was sleeping
in her abode among the mountains so pristine,

On the other side of the temple
the panorama unfolded a visual treat
as there lay standing far in the distance
the Gangotri glacier, Kedar and Badri and all those holy peaks,

We trekked on all fours to a nearby hill top
where lay fallen the snow of the year bygone
those rays of the sun that shone so brightly
have forgotten to lit this corner unknown,

Down we came and went to Chamba
evening sinking into the sulking town
we began our long walk back to Dhanolti
listening to the mountain sounds,

Who knows how we slept that night
who knows what dreams we dreamt
and though we were looking forward to tomorrow
we silently wished for the day to never end,

Five years is quite some time
& few things have certainly changed
yet there are memories of the trip to Dhanolti
which like our friendship has remain unchanged.

Photo Courtesy : http://www.trekearth.com/gallery/Asia/India/North/Uttaranchal/DHANOLTI/photo600308.htm

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Makes Me Wonder


Makes me wonder

If there's no winter, no summer either
always just the spring,
Will you miss them then
and the Autumn leaves.

All that glitters
for a change is gold,
the ocean and seas
doesn't taste salt.

The birds can talk
the way I talk to you,
The night isn't dark enough
for the ghosts to look through.

Let's assume no one grows old
all remain a child,
Tenderness prevails
in the beasts of wild.

There's no definition of the truth
for there exist no lies,
We could capture time in hand
so that it never flies.

If religions vanish
yet god exists,
fairies bring to reality
your every wish.

When colors are for eyes
not to dilute the minds,
What we say is what we mean
words have no meanings between the lines.

There are no nightmares
when you sleep,
There are no reasons
for anyone to weep.

Would you care to share a tear then
and mourn over the loss,
Will that make you sad, a loss of bad
and things that have gone.

Or will you rejoice
a lesser choice,
Of goodness, good and god
limitations of thought.

The more I think, the more I ponder
It makes me wonder,

Makes me wonder.


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Saturday, June 30, 2007

Ek Aur Raat (Intezaar Mein)


Isi intezaar mein baitha hoon
ki kab yeh shaam dhale
aur raat ka aanchal odh,
Mere khwabon ko mehkane
teri yaadein aayein

Bahut din hue tera deedar hokar
meri nazar ko paak hue
Bahut din hue dil mein bechaini lekar
raaton ko barbaad hue

Tere ehsaas ki hasrat mein
raatein gujarti rehti hain
Tere hoton ka tabassum,
Teri aankhon ka noor,
Sadiyon se lambi bhi yeh raatein hoti
to aitraaz na tha.
Main kaat leta, tere bahane tere sahare.

Teri zulf ki woh lat
jo tere rukhsaar ko chukar jhoom leti hai
Yeh hawayein, jo tere chehre ko choom leti hain
Kya naseeb hai inka, aur tere aanchal ka
ki yeh tere saath hain, har ju har lamha
Par fir main bhi akela nahi
yeh raat jo hai

Is raat mein teri khushboo hai
Teri hansi ki awaaz
Is raat ke sannate cheer deti hai,
Is raat mein teri yaadein hain,
Meri tanhayi teri yaadon mein bat jaati hai
aur raat yun hi kat jaati hai
Teri yaadon mein doobe hue
Teri yaadon mein khoye hue.

Picture courtesy : http://www.thegrantgallery.com/Art_work/Mist_evening.JPG

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Seeing by Jose Saramago

I finished reading Master's masterpiece a few days back. Here are as a part of habit, the collected quotes from the book.

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The genetic code of what, somewhat unthinkingly, we have been content to call human nature, cannot be reduced to the organic helix of deoxyribonucleic acid, or dna, there is much more to be said about it and it has much more to tell us, but human nature is, figuratively speaking, the complementary spiral that we have not yet managed to prise out of kindergarten despite the multitudes of psychologists and analysts from the most diverse schools and with the most diverse abilities who have broken their nails trying to draw its bolts.

Hope is like salt, there’s no nourishment in it, but it gives the bread its savor, for hours and hours.

Human beings are known universally as the only animals capable of lying, and while it is true that they sometime lie out of fear and sometimes out of self-interest, they also occasionally lie because they realize, just in time, that this is the only means available to them of defending the truth.

It is interesting to observe how the meanings of the words change without our noticing, how we often use them to mean precisely the opposite of what they used to mean and which, in a way, like a fading echo, they still continue to mean.

There is nothing like a good argument to release accumulated tension.

Experience has also taught us that when the time comes for them to be acted upon even the most perfect and polished of ideas can fail, whether because of some last minute hiccup, or because of a gap between expectation and reality, or because, at some critical point, the situation got out of control, or because of a thousand other possible reasons that it is not worth our while going into right now and for which we would not have time, it is therefore vital always to have at the ready a replacement or complementary idea, which would prevent, as might well happen in this case, the emergence of a power vacuum, or to use another more alarming expression, of street power, either of which would have disastrous consequences.

Caution and chicken soup never hurt anyone, in good health or bad.

The most common occurrence in this world of ours, in these days of stumbling blindly forward, is to come across men and women mature in years and ripe in prosperity, who, at eighteen, were not just beaming beacons of style, but also, and perhaps above all, bold revolutionaries determined to bring down the system supported by their parents and to replace it, at last, with a fraternal paradise, which, having warmed up and flexed their muscles on any of the many available versions of moderate conservatism, become, in time, pure egotism of the most obscene and reactionary kind. Put less respectfully, these men and these women, standing before the mirror of their life, spit every day in the face of what they were with the sputum of what they are.

Its odd how we spend everyday of our life saying goodbye, saying and hearing others say see you tomorrow, when inevitably, on one of those days, which will be someone’s last, either the person we said it to will no longer be here, or who said it will not.

As my cat would have said, all hours are good for sleeping.

Unknown soldiers do not need the names that they used in life in order to be showered with the right and proper honors, and that’s fine, if that’s what we agree to do, but if these dead, most of them unrecognizable, and two or three of them still unidentified, want anything, it is to be left in peace.

One can show no greater respect than to weep for a stranger.

Why do you grovel before my rough boots? / Why do you loosened your perfumed hairs / and treacherously open your soft arms? / I am nothing but a man with coarse hands / and a cold heart / and if, in order to pass, / I had to trample you underfoot / then, as you well know, I would trample you underfoot.

Changing the position of words often changes their meaning, but they, the words, when weighed one by one, continue physically to be exactly what they were.

People get upset and lose their temper and end up saying things they didn’t intend to or hadn’t even thought.

One precaution guarantees the other.

The safest way of categorizing is not by dividing them up into the stupid and the clever, but into the clever and the too clever, with the stupid we can do what we like, with the clever the trick is to get them on our side, whereas the too clever, even when they’re on our side, are still intrinsically dangerous, they cant help it, the oddest thing is that in everything they do, they are constantly warning us to be wary of them, but, generally speaking, we pay no attentions to the warnings and then have to face the consequences.

Sometimes being too close to the centers of decision-making brings on myopia, makes you short sighted.

If you want to be respected, don’t encourage familiarity.

When the birds are quiet, it doesn’t necessarily mean that they’re on their nests, it’s the calm that conceals the storm, not the other way round, the same thing happens with human conspiracies, the fact that no one mentions them doesn’t mean they don’t exist.

Knowledge on its own isn’t always enough, whereas with luck and time you can achieve almost anything.

A moment’s folly can ruin a whole career.

He that knows nothing sees nothing.

In a matter of moment the amount of sand in the upper part of the hour-glass had dwindled dramatically, the tiny grains were rushing through the opening, each grain more eager to leave than the last, time is just like people, sometimes it’s all it can do to drag itself along, but at others, it runs like a deer and leaps like a young goat.

Languages are conservative, they always carry their archives with them and hate having to be updated.

You can’t be too careful with thoughts, some present themselves to us with a cloying air of false innocence and then, when it’s too late, reveal their true wicked selves.

Dreaming is cheap, it doesn’t cost any money.

When we are born, when we enter this world, it is as if we signed a pact for the rest of our life, but a day may come when we will ask ourselves Who signed this on my behalf, well, I asked myself that question.

Some people manage to stay standing even when they have been knocked down, and you’re one of them.

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Sunday, June 24, 2007

Aren't My Girl

You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Your colors and canvas
lost in the cloud,
in someone else's kohl;
You know, you aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

The bed sheet linen
and muddied pillow covers,
these curtains still lie unfurled;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Light a candle
let's say cheers,
to all the tears that turned pearl;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Written in my books
words and phrases you trace,
all so delicate, pages paled;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Amongst the paces, fast and slow
lost in the path without care,
show more caution and don't trample;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Seen in the glass
diluted by the dizzy light,
in the wake of her trail;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Insane, glad that I'm mad
in love, singing a song so sad,
holding moments, in success I fail;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Doesn't really matter how's your face,
that you move with amazing grace,
'I love You a lot',
Those words you need not say;
Cos' you aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Trip To Maa Poornagiri



This was during my first visit to India after coming to US, back in December, '05. A trip to Poornagiri devi was our regular ritual while we were in Khatima. Thus me and my cousin brother, who still works there, started on a fine morning to the glorious temple where they say all your wishes come true :)

On our way, we stopped at the Chakrapur Temple and also the Bhoom Temple which stands by the bank of river Sharda. The overall trek, which once used to be 11 Km, is now only 5 Km, but still a challenge and yet a fulfilling experience.

About Maa Poornagiri temple : At a height of 3000 mts. above sea level, Purnagiri is 20 kms. from Tanakpur, 171 kms. from Pithoragarh and 92 kms. from Champawat. Purnagiri temple is visited throughout the year by devotees from all parts of the country, who come here in large numbers, particularly during Chaitra Navratri in the month of March - April. The surrounding valleys echo with the holy chantings of the devotees climbing up to the top for darshan, creating an atmosphere of spirituality. From Purnagiri, also known as Punyagiri, the river Kali descends into the plains and is known as Sharda. For visiting this shrine one can go upto Thuligaarh by vehicle. From this place one has to trek (the road is under construction upto Tunyas ). After the ascent of Bans ki Charhai comes Awalakhan (the new name is Hanuman Chatti).The south - western part of 'Punya Parvat' can be seen from this place. Another ascent ends at the TRC of Tanki. The region of temporary shops and residential huts start from this place upto Tunyas. From the highest point (the temple) of Purnagiri hill the pilgrim can see the expanse of Kali, its islands, the township of Tanakpur and a few Nepali villages. The old Buram Deo Mandi is very close to Purnagiri. From Tanakpur or Purnagiri it is possible to trek to Tamli and even to Jhulaghat along the Kali river.

My Sweet Lord


My sweet lord
Hm, my lord
Hm, my lord

I really want to see you
Really want to be with you
Really want to see you lord
But it takes so long, my lord

My sweet lord
Hm, my lord
Hm, my lord

I really want to know you
Really want to go with you
Really want to show you lord
That it won't take long, my lord (hallelujah)

My sweet lord (hallelujah)
Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My sweet lord (hallelujah)

I really want to see you
Really want to see you
Really want to see you, lord
Really want to see you, lord
But it takes so long, my lord (hallelujah)

My sweet lord (hallelujah)
Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My, my, my lord (hallelujah)

I really want to know you (hallelujah)
Really want to go with you (hallelujah)
Really want to show you lord (aaah)
That it won't take long, my lord (hallelujah)

Hmm (hallelujah)
My sweet lord (hallelujah)
My, my, lord (hallelujah)

Hm, my lord (hare krishna)
My, my, my lord (hare krishna)
Oh hm, my sweet lord (krishna, krishna)
Oh-uuh-uh (hare hare)

Now, I really want to see you (hare rama)
Really want to be with you (hare rama)
Really want to see you lord (aaah)
But it takes so long, my lord (hallelujah)

Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My, my, my lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (krishna krishna)
My lord (hare hare)
Hm, hm (Gurur Brahma)
Hm, hm (Gurur Vishnu)
Hm, hm (Gurur Devo)
Hm, hm (Maheshwara)
My sweet lord (Gurur Sakshaat)
My sweet lord (Parabrahma)
My, my, my lord (Tasmayi Shree)
My, my, my, my lord (Guruve Namah)
My sweet lord (Hare Rama)

[fade:]

(hare krishna)
My sweet lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (krishna krishna)
My lord (hare hare)

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Nostalgia


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OK let me get back to the routine :)
and be immersed in some nostalgia.

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Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Har shaam ka roothna manana
Raaton ke sapno mein savere bitana
Routine ka romance, jabardasti ki taareefein
Ajeeb si chuppi aur fizul ki muskarahate
Woh baaton ki baaton mein
Na jaane kitne jahan simat jaate hain
Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Awara kasmo ke hisaab khaate
aur behisaab aahein
Chakkaro ka silsila
the jo kabhi yunhi
tere ghar ke lagaye
Barbad hui un dopahariyon ki garmiyan
Canteen mein thandi hoti chai ki chuskiyan
Umr ke us daur se
yeh daur gujre jaate hain
Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Na jaane kitne email
Din bhar mein kai baar
Har ek mein likhi hui
Bas yahi ek baat
Aaj jab padhta hoon
un khato ko kabhi kabhar
to uljalool un khato mein
sanware woh shabd bhikar jaate hain
Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Zamane the yeh kaun se
Jo bakso mein band maun se
Peele hue un panno par ikhtiyar
Taazuub kabhi un par
Kabhi dastako ke zor par
bina italla diye
woh jab yunhi chale aate hain
Main seenchta hoon aansoon se
un kitaabo ko kabhi jab
un peele panno mein rakhe
Sookhe phool muskarate hain
Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain.


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Saturday, June 09, 2007

just a few rambles (all in smalls)

nothing lifts your mood than a few good songs, so after my dose of 'mujhko dafna kar woh jab wapas jaayenge' and other such Attaullah Khan songs that have been running continuously since last night, I shifted gears to the lovey dovey sound of QSQT. 'Gajab ka hai din socho zara', hmmm socho man, isnt it magic that nothing seems to be right in life and yet there's light, there's life :).

'Kya karoon mera yeh haal hai, raat din tumhara khayal hai', but that doesnt help much either, does it. Oh BTW, the 'all in small' clause has been broken quite a bit already, 12 times to be precise, like everything else even this didnt work out as per the plan.

But who cares, 'Akele hain to kya gam hai :) '.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Aboard the Ship of Mixed Emotions


A circle red and a circle black
Past, present they all are back.
Face it now and you'll regret
Days of the Sun that never set.
But for whose fight, whose cause
Pain that's peeling the sad remorse.
Understand the implications, future's holding in hand
Compromise is compromise, your losses cannot be your gains.
So feel the tremor beneath your feet
As its vital than the heart beat.

Remember,
there's always a circle we want to trace
on which lies the point where all ends met
and Yet,
we could end up being on a line
there's a one for you and there's one mine.

Wrote these lines while I was alone on the Hartford airport earlier this week. There wasn't a soul on the terminal as there were no US Airways flight during nights. The terminal was damn cold and with inadequate clothing, sleep was impossible. So I thought I should pass my time reading 'Seeing' by Saramago, which indeed was terrific, but the night seemingly was much longer than the novel itself and finally I ended up writing this one in the early hours of the morning.

Image courtesy : http://www.artshole.co.uk/arts/artists/Craig%20Griffin/'Forloin-Ship-under-Moonlig.jpg

Sunday, June 03, 2007

The Ugly, The Bad and The Sad

Chhup

Ek chhup ki jisko sabhi se chhupana
Ek chhup jisko chhupa ke batana

Ek chhup ke chhupane mein sadiyon ka fera
Fir milne milane tak dhhup andehra

Jo charchon aur jikron mein khoja bahut tha
Woh chhup khamosh gumsum magar tha

Woh raat ki syah mein mil to gaya tha
Saayon se lekin ghabra raha tha

Jo maine yeh poocha ki kya hai irada
Woh chupchap maun baitha raha tha

Kohre ki parte lapete hue woh
Na jaane kis or chala jaa raha tha

Na hathon, na pairon, na aankhen hi thi woh
Alag sa hi kuch woh bana ja raha tha

Pehchan uski na koi mayne hain
Kya shakal hogi kisko khabar hai

Woh khoya na jaane kis shab mein jaake
Ki us shab ki jaane fir kab sahar hai

Us chhup ko hai lekin kai raaz haasil
Kisi ki jubaa ke to hoga woh kaabil

Kabhi to aa saamne dhamkayega woh
Kabhi tak khud hi ko chupa paayega woh

Ek chhup ko chhupana chahte bahut hain
Ek chhup magar yun kab tak chhupega

Ek chhup ke hain dushman kai log lekin
Ek chhup yun chhup par ban na sakega

Ek chhup jo kisi se darega nahi
Jo ehtraam kisi ka karega nahi

Na jaane kab us chhup se parda hatega
Kab woh chhup ek chhup na rahega.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Who Is Watching Whom - 1 (Your Take)

Who can know
that I'm being watched,
followed
whenever I trace your path.

I continue to wander
once in a while in your domain,
every time
it becomes hard for me to bear the pain.

Soothes me
when I see life ticking at your virtual side,
figuring out
you and your life in the words you write.

That I leave no trace
is a compulsion I can't explain,
similar to one
why I visit you again and again.

Pardon me,
my helplessness, looming over me ever so eternally,
yet I'm human
so I escape to your realm, now and then occasionally.

Image courtesy : http://tn3-1.deviantart.com/fs11/300W/i/2006/236/2/e/Hide__and__seek_by_myBlueLight.jpg

Friday, May 25, 2007

My Call of Loneliness

Let there be a story for all to share;
it need not be peculiar

Doesn't really matter if its a trite,
a plot thats been oft repeated and hackneyed

And originality is my last concern
as long as there is someone
to tell me a tale, give me a talk;
I would even give you the expression of shock

By now you know, its my loneliness calling
melancholy's rising as shadows are falling

Beneath the ground beside me, my neighbors sleep
peacefully oblivious, my call no one heeds.

Monday, May 21, 2007

One of Those Nights

In a night of noisy silence
The moon came down and whispered to me;
Do you still remember her ?

I watched through my window
up on the hill, there's a fairy glow
In the watery pond
the stars are sleeping for the night
dreaming with their open eyes.
There's a hush in the valley, a peaceful calm,
the wind is resting in the night's arms.
The distant waterfall sings a lullaby
everyone's sleeping except you and I.

The smell of the jasmines is beginning to rise
soon it will overtake me and the night.
I notice a firefly trying hard
to breakthrough the night's dark;
somewhere in the distance it went
lost perhaps in the night again.
I know it has traveled far, to her window from mine,
like it always does, on one of those nights.

Thought it was clouds that shadowed the moon
but realized it soon,
The moon was sitting on the window sill
watching the lone fox dancing on the hill

I looked at the moon and blew off the lamp,
cos' I knew it will ask me again
Do I still remember her ?

I think I do.
In the midst of those nights
when the moon comes to visit me
leaving behind the skies
Yes I remember her
in one of those nights,
One of those nights.


Image courtesy : http://www.seaba.com/uploads/122My-Evening-Mountains.jpg.jpg

Saturday, May 19, 2007

If Words Were Enough










She said
She could not find herself
in my words.
Alas, we understand only words
and pity
for how much can they really say.

Unspeakable
that's how these emotions are,
and we'll always wonder
Why
I never said them
& you never understood them.

Shall I worry about my past
cos' future ain't bright either
and words
even they can't bring us together.

If you want me
to pen down an ode for love,
for you,
I can do that.
But do you really feel the need.
What's the point in
dressing emotion with words,
if you can't feel it anyways.

Wish you could understand
Everything else was secondary
the words, the past
when it came to loving you.

Or perhaps you can take this
as a reason
to soothe the heart thats broken,
and I wont mind you complain
That you could not find yourself
in my words.

Image Courtesy :
http://www.johnduncan.org/images/HALLofWORDS.jpg

Friday, April 27, 2007

WHY


Who cared
when you lived or
when you died.
Doesn't matter
if your words were true
or you lied.
we've been fighting
for so long,
for all the reasons
that are wrong,
And time
will witness the foolishness
of our minds,
they will wish
not to be of our kind.
With the fire of greed
we'll be burning down,
all that one sees is
filled with madness around.
Angst and hatred
and no cause,
we wont win
but we think we wont loose.
So carry on
don't stop, till we fade away,
It's no use telling us to stop
cos' we wont realize 'WHY' anyway.

Image courtesy : http://www.allthingsbeautiful.com/all_things_beautiful/images/Why-Does-The-Left-Support-l.jpg

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Fortunes in My Hand


There is Love, There is life
There is a hunger in my eyes
with the shirt around my waist,
& a dirty cap fitting loosely on the head;
some three or four bucks in my pocket,
a smile on the face thats more of a habit.
I've got a hope, I've got a desire
someday I too will set the stage on fire.
And as the time passes over, paving way for the night
I can still see my path, cos' there's somebody to guide.
May be all dreams will shatter, to fill me with pain
But I want to give it a shot, i want to turn it all again.
So I will spin the wheel, the wheel of time
will keep on knocking the door, until my good luck shines.

There is thunder, there is calm
There is a fire that will keep me warm
There is a madness and some sweetness too
and yes there's hope, what if the night does grew.
I'll surely realize my castles of sand,
and when the sun will rise tomorrow,
I'll be having fortunes in my hand.


Image Courtsey : http://www.flickr.com/photos/27546052@N00/99147661/

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Hasina ki Hansi

Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar
Jaayegi doob naiiya tumhari beech bhanwar majhdhaar
Na choona labo se labo ko kisi ke
Na karna kabhi kisi ka intezaar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Yeh zulfo Ki chaon hai lagti suhaani
Par hoti asal mein hai badi kharab
Bhoole se kabhi na yeh dil lagana
Ki hota bura hai yeh pyar ka bukhaar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Baaton mein inki na aana kabhi bhi
Adaaon pe inki na jaana kabhi bhi
Muskarahat sajaye labo pe to bachna
Hota bahut hai yeh zeher asardaar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Tumse to bas dikhawa hai
Aaine se inhe pyaar
Ji bhar ke dil se khelna
Hai inka kaarobar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Aankhon mein pyar, Hoton pe hansi
Gaalon pe zulf hai aisi saji
Adaaon mein inki hai jaadu koi
Bolon mein khanak, Haathon mein kala
Hai aisi bala ki bachna zara
Jo fisal gaye to fir na kehna
Nahi kiya tumko hoshiyaar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Guardian Angel (Misguided)

Guardian angel
thats what you are
and what a pity
cos' your love is all at sea
having no clues
of the depth of emotion
or of your passion.

Guardian angel
just guide your soul
to someone else's arm
let her feel that charm
which is your's
but not for you to claim,
Alas, you cannot even blame.

Guardian angel
cry with the smile
choke on your feelings
& say all the kind words
no matter how much it hurts.
How sad is this
that your love was so true,
if she only knew.

Guardian angel
is a role that you have played
is a price that you have paid.
A fake smile is all your reward,
and the realization that
Nice men finish last.


Image courtesy : http://angelofdarkness.bloguje.cz/sad_angel_x.jpg

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Still Struggling to Stray

It was a failed love affair
Yet she stayed,
indefinitely.
Every night the same music will play
watching wide in the distance
far away,
imprisoned
with thoughts of the past,
burdened with memories,
Wishing for freedom,
but ashamed of asking for it.
She reminds me of someone
may be its you,
but its difficult to accept
a new presence
When one's used to absence.
There's a hesitation,
a battle
between you and new.
Someone will loose
either
You / Memories
or
New / Feelings

This in a way is continuation of the soliloquy 'When will I wake and stray',
http://shashankchauhan.blogspot.com/2006/08/when-will-i-wake-up-and-stray.html

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Portrait


Shall I touch you
what good will that be
you are not even conscious of it.
Its hard to please you,
impress you.
My lady,
just like a child
you smile
and then you go back
Back to being a portrait.

Note: Image courtesy Sayandev
http://www.orkut.com/AlbumZoom.aspx?uid=3033745666751384315&pid=2

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Happy Birthday :)


Hi Dear :)
Wish u a very happy Birthday, hope u enjoy it to the max. Somethings are done more for one's own pleasure, I hope you understand. Life's been lovely for me and I am sure its the same for you.
Take Care and keep smiling, oh and here are some virtual flowers with real gud wishes for you.