Sunday, June 24, 2007

Aren't My Girl

You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Your colors and canvas
lost in the cloud,
in someone else's kohl;
You know, you aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

The bed sheet linen
and muddied pillow covers,
these curtains still lie unfurled;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Light a candle
let's say cheers,
to all the tears that turned pearl;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Written in my books
words and phrases you trace,
all so delicate, pages paled;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Amongst the paces, fast and slow
lost in the path without care,
show more caution and don't trample;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Seen in the glass
diluted by the dizzy light,
in the wake of her trail;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Insane, glad that I'm mad
in love, singing a song so sad,
holding moments, in success I fail;
You aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway

Doesn't really matter how's your face,
that you move with amazing grace,
'I love You a lot',
Those words you need not say;
Cos' you aren't my girl
But I'd love you anyway.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Trip To Maa Poornagiri



This was during my first visit to India after coming to US, back in December, '05. A trip to Poornagiri devi was our regular ritual while we were in Khatima. Thus me and my cousin brother, who still works there, started on a fine morning to the glorious temple where they say all your wishes come true :)

On our way, we stopped at the Chakrapur Temple and also the Bhoom Temple which stands by the bank of river Sharda. The overall trek, which once used to be 11 Km, is now only 5 Km, but still a challenge and yet a fulfilling experience.

About Maa Poornagiri temple : At a height of 3000 mts. above sea level, Purnagiri is 20 kms. from Tanakpur, 171 kms. from Pithoragarh and 92 kms. from Champawat. Purnagiri temple is visited throughout the year by devotees from all parts of the country, who come here in large numbers, particularly during Chaitra Navratri in the month of March - April. The surrounding valleys echo with the holy chantings of the devotees climbing up to the top for darshan, creating an atmosphere of spirituality. From Purnagiri, also known as Punyagiri, the river Kali descends into the plains and is known as Sharda. For visiting this shrine one can go upto Thuligaarh by vehicle. From this place one has to trek (the road is under construction upto Tunyas ). After the ascent of Bans ki Charhai comes Awalakhan (the new name is Hanuman Chatti).The south - western part of 'Punya Parvat' can be seen from this place. Another ascent ends at the TRC of Tanki. The region of temporary shops and residential huts start from this place upto Tunyas. From the highest point (the temple) of Purnagiri hill the pilgrim can see the expanse of Kali, its islands, the township of Tanakpur and a few Nepali villages. The old Buram Deo Mandi is very close to Purnagiri. From Tanakpur or Purnagiri it is possible to trek to Tamli and even to Jhulaghat along the Kali river.

My Sweet Lord


My sweet lord
Hm, my lord
Hm, my lord

I really want to see you
Really want to be with you
Really want to see you lord
But it takes so long, my lord

My sweet lord
Hm, my lord
Hm, my lord

I really want to know you
Really want to go with you
Really want to show you lord
That it won't take long, my lord (hallelujah)

My sweet lord (hallelujah)
Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My sweet lord (hallelujah)

I really want to see you
Really want to see you
Really want to see you, lord
Really want to see you, lord
But it takes so long, my lord (hallelujah)

My sweet lord (hallelujah)
Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My, my, my lord (hallelujah)

I really want to know you (hallelujah)
Really want to go with you (hallelujah)
Really want to show you lord (aaah)
That it won't take long, my lord (hallelujah)

Hmm (hallelujah)
My sweet lord (hallelujah)
My, my, lord (hallelujah)

Hm, my lord (hare krishna)
My, my, my lord (hare krishna)
Oh hm, my sweet lord (krishna, krishna)
Oh-uuh-uh (hare hare)

Now, I really want to see you (hare rama)
Really want to be with you (hare rama)
Really want to see you lord (aaah)
But it takes so long, my lord (hallelujah)

Hm, my lord (hallelujah)
My, my, my lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (krishna krishna)
My lord (hare hare)
Hm, hm (Gurur Brahma)
Hm, hm (Gurur Vishnu)
Hm, hm (Gurur Devo)
Hm, hm (Maheshwara)
My sweet lord (Gurur Sakshaat)
My sweet lord (Parabrahma)
My, my, my lord (Tasmayi Shree)
My, my, my, my lord (Guruve Namah)
My sweet lord (Hare Rama)

[fade:]

(hare krishna)
My sweet lord (hare krishna)
My sweet lord (krishna krishna)
My lord (hare hare)

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Nostalgia


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OK let me get back to the routine :)
and be immersed in some nostalgia.

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Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Har shaam ka roothna manana
Raaton ke sapno mein savere bitana
Routine ka romance, jabardasti ki taareefein
Ajeeb si chuppi aur fizul ki muskarahate
Woh baaton ki baaton mein
Na jaane kitne jahan simat jaate hain
Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Awara kasmo ke hisaab khaate
aur behisaab aahein
Chakkaro ka silsila
the jo kabhi yunhi
tere ghar ke lagaye
Barbad hui un dopahariyon ki garmiyan
Canteen mein thandi hoti chai ki chuskiyan
Umr ke us daur se
yeh daur gujre jaate hain
Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Na jaane kitne email
Din bhar mein kai baar
Har ek mein likhi hui
Bas yahi ek baat
Aaj jab padhta hoon
un khato ko kabhi kabhar
to uljalool un khato mein
sanware woh shabd bhikar jaate hain
Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Zamane the yeh kaun se
Jo bakso mein band maun se
Peele hue un panno par ikhtiyar
Taazuub kabhi un par
Kabhi dastako ke zor par
bina italla diye
woh jab yunhi chale aate hain
Main seenchta hoon aansoon se
un kitaabo ko kabhi jab
un peele panno mein rakhe
Sookhe phool muskarate hain
Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain

Woh shikayato ke din yaad aate hain.


Image courtesy : http://www.landingpartygallery.com/orig_trad_fig/images/Nostalgia.jpg

Saturday, June 09, 2007

just a few rambles (all in smalls)

nothing lifts your mood than a few good songs, so after my dose of 'mujhko dafna kar woh jab wapas jaayenge' and other such Attaullah Khan songs that have been running continuously since last night, I shifted gears to the lovey dovey sound of QSQT. 'Gajab ka hai din socho zara', hmmm socho man, isnt it magic that nothing seems to be right in life and yet there's light, there's life :).

'Kya karoon mera yeh haal hai, raat din tumhara khayal hai', but that doesnt help much either, does it. Oh BTW, the 'all in small' clause has been broken quite a bit already, 12 times to be precise, like everything else even this didnt work out as per the plan.

But who cares, 'Akele hain to kya gam hai :) '.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Aboard the Ship of Mixed Emotions


A circle red and a circle black
Past, present they all are back.
Face it now and you'll regret
Days of the Sun that never set.
But for whose fight, whose cause
Pain that's peeling the sad remorse.
Understand the implications, future's holding in hand
Compromise is compromise, your losses cannot be your gains.
So feel the tremor beneath your feet
As its vital than the heart beat.

Remember,
there's always a circle we want to trace
on which lies the point where all ends met
and Yet,
we could end up being on a line
there's a one for you and there's one mine.

Wrote these lines while I was alone on the Hartford airport earlier this week. There wasn't a soul on the terminal as there were no US Airways flight during nights. The terminal was damn cold and with inadequate clothing, sleep was impossible. So I thought I should pass my time reading 'Seeing' by Saramago, which indeed was terrific, but the night seemingly was much longer than the novel itself and finally I ended up writing this one in the early hours of the morning.

Image courtesy : http://www.artshole.co.uk/arts/artists/Craig%20Griffin/'Forloin-Ship-under-Moonlig.jpg

Sunday, June 03, 2007

The Ugly, The Bad and The Sad

Chhup

Ek chhup ki jisko sabhi se chhupana
Ek chhup jisko chhupa ke batana

Ek chhup ke chhupane mein sadiyon ka fera
Fir milne milane tak dhhup andehra

Jo charchon aur jikron mein khoja bahut tha
Woh chhup khamosh gumsum magar tha

Woh raat ki syah mein mil to gaya tha
Saayon se lekin ghabra raha tha

Jo maine yeh poocha ki kya hai irada
Woh chupchap maun baitha raha tha

Kohre ki parte lapete hue woh
Na jaane kis or chala jaa raha tha

Na hathon, na pairon, na aankhen hi thi woh
Alag sa hi kuch woh bana ja raha tha

Pehchan uski na koi mayne hain
Kya shakal hogi kisko khabar hai

Woh khoya na jaane kis shab mein jaake
Ki us shab ki jaane fir kab sahar hai

Us chhup ko hai lekin kai raaz haasil
Kisi ki jubaa ke to hoga woh kaabil

Kabhi to aa saamne dhamkayega woh
Kabhi tak khud hi ko chupa paayega woh

Ek chhup ko chhupana chahte bahut hain
Ek chhup magar yun kab tak chhupega

Ek chhup ke hain dushman kai log lekin
Ek chhup yun chhup par ban na sakega

Ek chhup jo kisi se darega nahi
Jo ehtraam kisi ka karega nahi

Na jaane kab us chhup se parda hatega
Kab woh chhup ek chhup na rahega.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Who Is Watching Whom - 1 (Your Take)

Who can know
that I'm being watched,
followed
whenever I trace your path.

I continue to wander
once in a while in your domain,
every time
it becomes hard for me to bear the pain.

Soothes me
when I see life ticking at your virtual side,
figuring out
you and your life in the words you write.

That I leave no trace
is a compulsion I can't explain,
similar to one
why I visit you again and again.

Pardon me,
my helplessness, looming over me ever so eternally,
yet I'm human
so I escape to your realm, now and then occasionally.

Image courtesy : http://tn3-1.deviantart.com/fs11/300W/i/2006/236/2/e/Hide__and__seek_by_myBlueLight.jpg

Friday, May 25, 2007

My Call of Loneliness

Let there be a story for all to share;
it need not be peculiar

Doesn't really matter if its a trite,
a plot thats been oft repeated and hackneyed

And originality is my last concern
as long as there is someone
to tell me a tale, give me a talk;
I would even give you the expression of shock

By now you know, its my loneliness calling
melancholy's rising as shadows are falling

Beneath the ground beside me, my neighbors sleep
peacefully oblivious, my call no one heeds.

Monday, May 21, 2007

One of Those Nights

In a night of noisy silence
The moon came down and whispered to me;
Do you still remember her ?

I watched through my window
up on the hill, there's a fairy glow
In the watery pond
the stars are sleeping for the night
dreaming with their open eyes.
There's a hush in the valley, a peaceful calm,
the wind is resting in the night's arms.
The distant waterfall sings a lullaby
everyone's sleeping except you and I.

The smell of the jasmines is beginning to rise
soon it will overtake me and the night.
I notice a firefly trying hard
to breakthrough the night's dark;
somewhere in the distance it went
lost perhaps in the night again.
I know it has traveled far, to her window from mine,
like it always does, on one of those nights.

Thought it was clouds that shadowed the moon
but realized it soon,
The moon was sitting on the window sill
watching the lone fox dancing on the hill

I looked at the moon and blew off the lamp,
cos' I knew it will ask me again
Do I still remember her ?

I think I do.
In the midst of those nights
when the moon comes to visit me
leaving behind the skies
Yes I remember her
in one of those nights,
One of those nights.


Image courtesy : http://www.seaba.com/uploads/122My-Evening-Mountains.jpg.jpg

Saturday, May 19, 2007

If Words Were Enough










She said
She could not find herself
in my words.
Alas, we understand only words
and pity
for how much can they really say.

Unspeakable
that's how these emotions are,
and we'll always wonder
Why
I never said them
& you never understood them.

Shall I worry about my past
cos' future ain't bright either
and words
even they can't bring us together.

If you want me
to pen down an ode for love,
for you,
I can do that.
But do you really feel the need.
What's the point in
dressing emotion with words,
if you can't feel it anyways.

Wish you could understand
Everything else was secondary
the words, the past
when it came to loving you.

Or perhaps you can take this
as a reason
to soothe the heart thats broken,
and I wont mind you complain
That you could not find yourself
in my words.

Image Courtesy :
http://www.johnduncan.org/images/HALLofWORDS.jpg

Friday, April 27, 2007

WHY


Who cared
when you lived or
when you died.
Doesn't matter
if your words were true
or you lied.
we've been fighting
for so long,
for all the reasons
that are wrong,
And time
will witness the foolishness
of our minds,
they will wish
not to be of our kind.
With the fire of greed
we'll be burning down,
all that one sees is
filled with madness around.
Angst and hatred
and no cause,
we wont win
but we think we wont loose.
So carry on
don't stop, till we fade away,
It's no use telling us to stop
cos' we wont realize 'WHY' anyway.

Image courtesy : http://www.allthingsbeautiful.com/all_things_beautiful/images/Why-Does-The-Left-Support-l.jpg

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Fortunes in My Hand


There is Love, There is life
There is a hunger in my eyes
with the shirt around my waist,
& a dirty cap fitting loosely on the head;
some three or four bucks in my pocket,
a smile on the face thats more of a habit.
I've got a hope, I've got a desire
someday I too will set the stage on fire.
And as the time passes over, paving way for the night
I can still see my path, cos' there's somebody to guide.
May be all dreams will shatter, to fill me with pain
But I want to give it a shot, i want to turn it all again.
So I will spin the wheel, the wheel of time
will keep on knocking the door, until my good luck shines.

There is thunder, there is calm
There is a fire that will keep me warm
There is a madness and some sweetness too
and yes there's hope, what if the night does grew.
I'll surely realize my castles of sand,
and when the sun will rise tomorrow,
I'll be having fortunes in my hand.


Image Courtsey : http://www.flickr.com/photos/27546052@N00/99147661/

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Hasina ki Hansi

Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar
Jaayegi doob naiiya tumhari beech bhanwar majhdhaar
Na choona labo se labo ko kisi ke
Na karna kabhi kisi ka intezaar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Yeh zulfo Ki chaon hai lagti suhaani
Par hoti asal mein hai badi kharab
Bhoole se kabhi na yeh dil lagana
Ki hota bura hai yeh pyar ka bukhaar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Baaton mein inki na aana kabhi bhi
Adaaon pe inki na jaana kabhi bhi
Muskarahat sajaye labo pe to bachna
Hota bahut hai yeh zeher asardaar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Tumse to bas dikhawa hai
Aaine se inhe pyaar
Ji bhar ke dil se khelna
Hai inka kaarobar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Aankhon mein pyar, Hoton pe hansi
Gaalon pe zulf hai aisi saji
Adaaon mein inki hai jaadu koi
Bolon mein khanak, Haathon mein kala
Hai aisi bala ki bachna zara
Jo fisal gaye to fir na kehna
Nahi kiya tumko hoshiyaar
Hasina ki hansi ka yaaron karna na aitbaar

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Guardian Angel (Misguided)

Guardian angel
thats what you are
and what a pity
cos' your love is all at sea
having no clues
of the depth of emotion
or of your passion.

Guardian angel
just guide your soul
to someone else's arm
let her feel that charm
which is your's
but not for you to claim,
Alas, you cannot even blame.

Guardian angel
cry with the smile
choke on your feelings
& say all the kind words
no matter how much it hurts.
How sad is this
that your love was so true,
if she only knew.

Guardian angel
is a role that you have played
is a price that you have paid.
A fake smile is all your reward,
and the realization that
Nice men finish last.


Image courtesy : http://angelofdarkness.bloguje.cz/sad_angel_x.jpg

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Still Struggling to Stray

It was a failed love affair
Yet she stayed,
indefinitely.
Every night the same music will play
watching wide in the distance
far away,
imprisoned
with thoughts of the past,
burdened with memories,
Wishing for freedom,
but ashamed of asking for it.
She reminds me of someone
may be its you,
but its difficult to accept
a new presence
When one's used to absence.
There's a hesitation,
a battle
between you and new.
Someone will loose
either
You / Memories
or
New / Feelings

This in a way is continuation of the soliloquy 'When will I wake and stray',
http://shashankchauhan.blogspot.com/2006/08/when-will-i-wake-up-and-stray.html

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Portrait


Shall I touch you
what good will that be
you are not even conscious of it.
Its hard to please you,
impress you.
My lady,
just like a child
you smile
and then you go back
Back to being a portrait.

Note: Image courtesy Sayandev
http://www.orkut.com/AlbumZoom.aspx?uid=3033745666751384315&pid=2

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Happy Birthday :)


Hi Dear :)
Wish u a very happy Birthday, hope u enjoy it to the max. Somethings are done more for one's own pleasure, I hope you understand. Life's been lovely for me and I am sure its the same for you.
Take Care and keep smiling, oh and here are some virtual flowers with real gud wishes for you.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Remembering Satyendra Dubey

Na mujhko yaad rakhna, na mera kaam yaad rakhna, bas itni dua hai, ki paigam yaad rakhna
Don’t remember me or my work, just one request, remember my message.

In 2003, Dubey, a 31-year-old project director with the National Highways Authority of India, was shot dead near the Circuit House in Gaya after he exposed deep-rooted corruption in construction of the Golden Quadrilateral Project.
Lets remember the true son of the soil, on his third death anniversary and gather courage to fight against corruption and injustice.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

On a Stone Raft I float

Ever since I started reading, I mean consciously, i made it a habit that for every book I read, I'll make a note of all the lines I liked in that particular book. I did the same this time while reading the brilliant "The Stone Raft" by Jose Saramago. Written originally in portugese, The Stone Raft is a book that was so different from the works of the various Nobel laureates I have read so far. Devoid on any complexities, the beauty of this book lies in the fact that it is simple and yet so deep. As an indication of what this book is about, I would say this belongs to the same genre as Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist. And that brings another point, its ironical that I have to use Coelho as a reference to introduce Saramago when it should be the other way round.
Anyways I am neither a critic nor a reviewer, the purpose of this blog entry is to put down the brilliant lines that I came across while reading the book. I enjoyed them thoroughly and hope everyone else would feel the same.

Tourists who are out and about early are like this, at heart troubled and restless, unable to accept life’s inescapable brevity, late to bed and early to rise does not make one healthy, but it does prolong life.

For something to exist there are two essential conditions, that a man should see it and that he be able to give it a name.

Bad examples have always prospered and borne more fruit than good advice, and who can tell by what rapid means bad example is transmitted.

In the various arts, and above all in that of writing, the shortest distance between two points, even if close to each other, has never been and never will be, nor is it now, what is known as a straight line, never, never, to put it strongly and emphatically in response to any doubts, to silence them once and for all.

Cowardice is worse than an octopus, an octopus can both contract and extend its arms, cowardice can only contract them.

There are people who do not believe in coincidences, when one is constantly discovering coincidences in the world and is beginning to wonder if coincidences are not the very logic of this world.

Clarity and obscurity cast the same shadow and light, obscurity is clear, clarity is obscure, and as for someone being able to say factually and precisely what he feels and thinks, don’t you believe it, not because he doesn’t want to, but because he cannot.

To be jealous of what only appears to exist is a waste of effort.

Priorities of past should not be allowed to hinder the future.

Why bother discussing the reasons, sometimes one is enough, at other times not even lumping them all together will do it, if your own lives haven’t taught you this, too bad for you, and I repeat, lives not life, for we all have several, and fortunately they kill each other off, otherwise we wouldn’t be able to survive.

What count is the moment, we only serve the moment, and moments give us no warning when they’re coming.

A journey only makes sense if you finish it.

Reaching a decision means saying yes or no, the merest whisper on one’s lips, the difficulties come later when one puts the decision into practice, as we learn from human experience, gained with time and patience, with few hopes and even fewer changes.

Wars are like disasters, they never come singly, the first is a trial run to test the ground, the second to improve performance, the third to secure victory, each of them being, according to where you start counting, third, second, and first.

We often hallucinate when we dearly want something, our wise body takes pity on us, simulates within itself the satisfaction of oure desires, that is what dreaming means, If it weren’t so, how we could ever bear this intolerable life.

Real love means keeping no secrets from one’s beloved, the worst comes later when the romance is over and the lover who has confided his secrets regrets having spoken while the beloved abuses his confidence.

Nature is masterly when it comes to composing spectacles attuned to human circumstances.

The potential harmony of things depends on their equilibrium and the time when they occur, not too soon, not too late, which explains why it is so difficult for us to attain perfection.

Men also weep, its nothing to be ashamed of, and weeping only does them good.

Anyone who knows anything about words knows to expect anything from them.

While there’s life, there’s hope, so do not despair.

Governments are only capable and effective at times when there is no real need to put their ability and effectiveness to test.

Each of us sees the world with the eyes he possess, and eyes see what they choose to see, eyes create the world’s diversity and fabricate its wonders.

Dying for the sake of dying is preferable to dying of hunger or some malignant disease.

Courage and fear are the two pans on the scale that oscillate while the pointer remains still, paralyzed by the amazement at the useless invention of emotions and feelings.

Despair, as we all know, is human, there is no evidence in natural history that animals despair. Yet man, inseparable from despair, has become accustomed to living with it, endures it to its extremes.

In moments of crisis indulging the flesh is what best serves the deeper interests of humanity and of human beings, both habitually harassed as they are by morality.

Journeys succeed each other and accumulate like generations, between the grandson you were and the grandfather you will be, what father will you have been. Therefore a journey, however futile, is necessary.

For the strong to brag about their strength in the presence of the weak is a sign of moral perversion.

We all end up where we want to be, its only a question of time and patience, the hare goes faster than the tortoise, perhaps it will arrive first, so long as it does not cross the path of the hunter and his shotgun.

The world is full of coincidences, and if one thing does not coincide with another that happens to be close to it, that is no reason for denying coincidences, all it means is that what is coinciding is not visible.

The wounds of the soul are deep, otherwise they would not be of the soul.

Your questions are false if you already know the answer.

We are probably incapable of filling emptiness, and what we call meaning is no more than a fleeting collection of images that once seemed harmonious, images on which the intelligence tried in panic to introduce reason, order, coherence.

Words become inadequate as we get closer to the frontiers of the inexpressible, we try to say love and the word will not come out, we try to say I want and we say I cannot, we try to utter the final word only to realize that we have gone back to the beginning.

There comes a time when pride has nothing but words.

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Monday, October 30, 2006

Justice Done :)

So finally the sentence all waited for. Santosh Kumar Singh to be hanged till death. Without being sentimental or emotional, I am happy, more so optimistic, hopefully this will set a precendent for such criminals to be brought to justice.
For the CBI folks, delayed but all in all a job well done. And for the judiciary, they proved that "Satyameva Jayate" just arent mere words.
Once again congrats to Justice For Priyadarshani, Indu Jalali and The media.

http://hindustantimes.com/news/181_1831928,000600010001.htm

Friday, October 27, 2006

The One You Dont Seem To Notice


Somebody walks on the empty stairs
Wakes up in the lonely nights
Sleeps inside the closet
& may be even calls
once in a while,
whose sound is that
which echoes
in the heat of the summer
Words unspoken, unheard
hanging in the air
waiting to dry and drop down.
Whose words are these?
Isnt someone standing
soaked in the poaring rain
drenched in a thick veil of memories
and mist.
If its not the body
what's going numb
in the winter's snow.
Hungry eyes are staring
continuously
fingers waiting eternally for a touch,
There's someone in here,
never ceasing to rest
always floating in the arid humidity,
Who is that
The one you dont seem to notice.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Happy Diwali My Dear

Hope you are doing really well. This is more of a ritual but a heartfelt one. As always, Wish you happiness, peace and prosperity this diwali, let there always be love and laughter in your life.
Take good care of yourself and keep smiling :)

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Priyadarshani's Killer Convicted

Finally some justice done. Goes against my nature but wont mind a death penalty for the guilty. Congrats to Justice For Priyadarshani and Indu Jalali, you people have done a great deed and are inspiration for us all.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Hail The Words - continues

With Trees - Korpiklaani

A gem from the Finnish Folk Metal band "Korpiklaani",

Far, far away and where the wind freezes your face
There you won't be alone
I would rather be with trees, than in the middle of noisy streets

And many of us will keep dreaming of being with the Trees, sitting inside our nests in these jungles of concrete.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Hail the words

and Hail the music.

For a long time I wanted to write a bit about my favourite songs or to put it more appropriately my favourite lines (from a song). I even created a separate blog for that just that after adding the brilliant "I feel just like a child" by Devendra Banhart, I never updated it.
Today I added the second to that list, the dark and gloomy "Peace, Love and Understanding" by A Perfect Circle. Nice emoish song, to sit and enjoy the melancholic times.

The lyrics can be accessed anywhere on the web or through my entry at Blueguitar's Music Zone.

I will try to update this more regularily and also put my thought about why i liked it. Of course with the permission of Time.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Message


Hey
You claim

The words can win the world
and that
The pen is mightier than the sword.
You are good at words,
but enough of your talks.
Lets give up the words
and do some work.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

So is that all you wanted.
A road less travelled,
Knowledge of life
and all thats before and after,
freedom from sorrows and laughter.
Independence from time,
A thinking Mind,
Moksha and Nirvana,
Karma and Penance,
Self-denial and no self-indulgence.

Now when the maze has finally caught up,
Do you see the exit.
Or in the tangled web
you're still searching for the light.

It's hard to say how far you are,
but there's always a road back.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Mumbai Blasts

This one is for GUNS, wrote them long back but thought I should share them. Pardon my english for all the grammer mistakes :)

Day before yesterday, a series of blasts ripped through the city of Mumbai. I read the news only in the afternoon (about six hours after the event) and initial reaction was to call Tushar. Tushar lived and commuted on the same train route where the blasts have taken place. My efforts to establish any sort of immediate contacts with him by means of phone were in vain as understandably the lines were busy. So I mailed the college Yahoo group and also mailed Tushar. I further mailed the other friends in Mumbai to enquire if they are safe and sound. In the time that followed this process of enquiry and concern was applied to people here in Cincinnati hailing from Mumbai. After this initial reaction of concern and associated activities, I realized something. Was I attached to this tragedy, was I a part of it, was I even feeling the way I should.

This wasn’t an event that required ones attention for an hour or two, like an accident where you panic; you try to get in touch with your near and dear ones. Once you’ve made sure that everyone is fine, you take a sigh of relief and then for get the accident as a bad dream. After all, essentially none that you were concerned with are affected.

But Mumbai blasts are not accident, they are a serious threat to my country, my fellow countrymen and when I think deeper, it’s a threat to me. Mumbai blasts are not accident, they are a well thought of plan to disrupt harmony and peace of me and my country.

Sadly though, these thoughts never occurred to me. I made sure that all those I knew are fine and got back to my work. Now that I think, this is what I feel these terrorists bank on. They realize that most people will forget these things like I did and most of us end up doing just that. We forget too soon, too easily, go back to the state of slumber we always were, only to wake up when these terror merchants carry their business again. We are again hurt the same way, but we continue the way we live, a life ridden by forgetfulness. And perhaps that’s the way the government deals with these situations. That’s why I don’t blame them; after all they have been bitten by the same bug as me. None of us think deep, none of us care for people beyond our sphere of known.

So far away from my country, I have to force myself to think all this. Sad but true. I know I would have done nothing if I was in India, but I might have been inclined to these thoughts naturally. Alas now I am forcing myself, I’m on the look for people to discuss my thoughts, my anguish, my helplessness. Alas.

Worse is the realization that even after giving time to this, I’m not able to come up with any single point that I can suggest to counter such events and activities. We don’t even know who the real culprit is? Is it Pakistan, is it the global Islamic terrorists, is it the POK based groups, the religion-based fundamentalists or the local terror groups.

Most newspapers are filled with an image of Mumbaikars , depicting them as those who are not jolted, praising their spirit, their courage, people who are united, so on and so forth. Irony is that its event as bad as this that unites us, makes us stand together. Everyone in college got into act when they heard the news, cursing government, terrorists, or who so ever they thought they should. We all cursed and expressed our sorrow united. Happy occasions are not sufficient to unite the people. We don’t have anything major on festive occasions in our college. Like I said, happiness is a less valued emotion. Irony, because all we ever aspire for is happiness and joy and yet those are not sufficient to unite us.

One of my friend linked all this unity and aforementioned state of emotions in the aftermath of a tragedy to the term ‘Indianess’. According to him, all of us have this subconscious Indianess buried inside us that rises on occasions like Mumbai blasts. Is this Indianess or a sudden charge of sentiments that dies so soon that it just don’t feel right to give it such a big name as Indianess. And if its really Indianess, shame on myself for it takes a terrorist attack to evoke it. Can’t I have this Indianess as a part of myself, just like my feelings for my parents, like those towards my friends. It makes me sad to realize that my Indianess is not a vital part of me. I sleep with this sad thought. I hope I wake up more clear in head, more Indian in heart.